I’ve always had this habit of thinking about life before I go to sleep. I just lay in my bed, stare at the darkness and think. Think of what I Want to do with my life. Think of what I’m gonna do tomorrow. Think of what I’m gonna wear. Think of that one special person. Write scripts in your head of what you want to happen. Replay amazing moment that happened through out the day. I get so worried about it all, every single one of those random thoughts. I always hope for the best out of everything. I’ve Never layed down without thinking about life and what’s going to happen in the future.

I feel like life would be so much easier if you can know whats gonna happen in the future. Have you ever felt scared of doing something because you didn’t know what it would led to in the future? i hate that you always have to doubt certain things you do, i wish it could be as easy as “ohh i already know this is gonna work out (:” and then you just go ahead and do it. I wish you didn’t think about all the what if’s and wonder what could have happened, but living in a world as we do now i guess all you can do is follow your heart and just say fuck it and hope it works out for the best.